Emotions

 I have this thing where half the time I have no clue what I'm feeling.  So I end up blowing up over a stupid comment about nothing. And it often surprises me as much as the person I just blew up at. 

I've been upset about work, about my old boss for months but hadn't been able to verbalize it or put it in words. I was able to tell some to Dave but his sudden death makes me feel like those thoughts died along with him.  

I rarely dream but since I retired I've been having nightmares every night about the computer equipment I left behind. I wake up all upset thinking about the hardware layouts I was testing with. 

Change is hard and this year has been nothing but change. Change in how everything we do, was changes at work, changes with my home being purged of extraneous junk... it's too much.  I feel so lost. 

Sudden death

 It's been less than 2 full weeks since I retired and hear of the death of a colleague.

 I first met him as an intern in technical support over the summer. He then got hired as engineer in ASIC design, became team leader, head of department and eventually VP. 

I worked with him about 20 years, the last where he was my bosses boss. He will be missed. He had a great sense of humour and was very down to earth. 

Dave you will be missed. 

New 70's dress

 I've been stress sewing. This is my latest creation. A dress made with pattern from 1972, Butterick 6683

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Feeling upside down

 Still don't know how I'm feeling but I'm upset. I keep crying on and off. I don't deal well with change. The past year has been nothing but constant change. 

I feel so discombobulated. I feel alone with no one to talk about how I feel. No one ever understands and it makes me feel even worse because how I'm feeling gets dismissed. 

I feel so stuck I don't know how to move forward. I don't know how to ask for help. I just feel really stuck. 

Another knit dress

 I made this one last fall. I was testing out Simplicity 3503, I made model E in the short version. 

It has come to my attention that disabled sewers appreciate how an outfit looks when one is sitting. So this is the first dress I model both standing and sitting:

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I retired after 29 years

 I don't know how I'm feeling. I couldn't sleep last night ... all I could think of was all the conputer equipment I was using and how attached I am to everything. 

My unnatual attachment to innanimate objects. I wonder if it's related or a symptom of my deep abandonment issues. 

All I know is I could not sleep. I'm thinking of all the Lenovo systems. 

I can't find the words for the deep emotional turmoil I'm feeling. 

Pfizer #2

 At Centre Gerry Robertson in Pierrefonds getting my 2nd covid vaccination.

I also wore a dragonfly dress for my 2nd dose. 

My latest sarong finds

Since the beginning of pandemic I haven't had a chance to go to value village much and the last few times they had no sewing patterns. 

I always check for sarongs and silk scarves. Today was no patterns but found a dragonfly sarong!!!! These are the last 3 sarongs that felt the need to come home. 

This one is a skirt. Not sure if someone bought a sarong then adding clips or if it was purchased like this but with minor adjustments on the pleats I've got this one to wear on the beach too! 

  

One of my favourite patterns - New Look 6093

 I first made New look 6093 back in 2015, first with a pink & white plaid stretch woven cotton. I loved the fact the dress was shaped very differently then current dresses I was still buying at the store. What I've recently realized is that it's a 1940's inspired dress, most likely a late 40's pin-up style. I've found a few other dresses made like this one with bias side pieces when researching.  So far all of the ones I've made have been with some form of cotton. Next time I make this dress, I want to make it in a flowy rayon .

One of the things I love about this pattern is that it has a reasonably full skirt but it's not using tons of fabric. I tend to prefer dresses with less fabric than more and I like my dresses above the knee so that I'm less likely to trip. Believe it or not, when I wear long dresses with full skirt, I'm far more clumsy.

New Look 6093 - 40's inspired dress. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Made this one in 2015

This one was made in 2017 with quilting fabric from Atlantic Fabrics. It's a stained glass effect with dragonflies

This one was made in 2018 with Quilting cotton

 

With some colourful cotton batik - Last one I made but never took a photo.