Feeling upside down

 Still don't know how I'm feeling but I'm upset. I keep crying on and off. I don't deal well with change. The past year has been nothing but constant change. 

I feel so discombobulated. I feel alone with no one to talk about how I feel. No one ever understands and it makes me feel even worse because how I'm feeling gets dismissed. 

I feel so stuck I don't know how to move forward. I don't know how to ask for help. I just feel really stuck.