I retired after 29 years

 I don't know how I'm feeling. I couldn't sleep last night ... all I could think of was all the conputer equipment I was using and how attached I am to everything. 

My unnatual attachment to innanimate objects. I wonder if it's related or a symptom of my deep abandonment issues. 

All I know is I could not sleep. I'm thinking of all the Lenovo systems. 

I can't find the words for the deep emotional turmoil I'm feeling.