Friday, August 03, 2018
Thursday, August 02, 2018
Wow. Not like my life ever takes a break
Let's see, there's the fridge that died in mid June and leaked all over the floor. New Maytag fridge was delivered July 17th. I got a fridge with freezer on the bottom and fridge on top :)
There was Terry who took mdma on July 9th, and OD'ed and was at hospital until he signed himself out against doctors orders on the 18th after they almost killed him. I'm not going to go into details other then he was admitted in ER of the Lakeshore on the 10th, was transferred that night to St Mary's where he was the 11, 12, and 13th on life support. Friday the 13th, they returned him to the Lakeshore ICU and finally Saturday the 14th, when I saw him at 6am he finally recognized me. He was transferred out of the ICU to 4W on Sunday night and then Monday Tuesday and Wednesday were a bit of a nightmare. He came home Wednesday the 18th.
In that time he had multiple heart attacks, his kidneys shut down, he ended up with a nasty heat rash that became prickly heat. He also had rhabdomyolysis pretty intensely. After all of this he's very weak and really thin, has no muscles to speak off, but he will survive.
My truck ended up with water dripping due to condensation in the passenger side, pretty bad. It was caused by idling in the truck. There was two days where I was so upset at Terry I spent hours in the truck idling [Because it was 34C and I couldn't deal with heat and being upset]. I took it to my usual garage and at first the guy told me TO GET RID OF MY TRUCK. That the problem would cost thousands to fix. THat it would be a minimum of 10 hours of labour. In the end, this garage is awesome. It cost me 5 hours of labour to get the main heater core gasket changed. I talked to two of the guys at work and they both agreed that it explained my problem and the garage took good care of Me. Speedy in Kirkland have awesome mechanics.
Then it rained on the week-end and the roof LEAKED AGAIN in my fucking closet. Like really?
There was Terry who took mdma on July 9th, and OD'ed and was at hospital until he signed himself out against doctors orders on the 18th after they almost killed him. I'm not going to go into details other then he was admitted in ER of the Lakeshore on the 10th, was transferred that night to St Mary's where he was the 11, 12, and 13th on life support. Friday the 13th, they returned him to the Lakeshore ICU and finally Saturday the 14th, when I saw him at 6am he finally recognized me. He was transferred out of the ICU to 4W on Sunday night and then Monday Tuesday and Wednesday were a bit of a nightmare. He came home Wednesday the 18th.
In that time he had multiple heart attacks, his kidneys shut down, he ended up with a nasty heat rash that became prickly heat. He also had rhabdomyolysis pretty intensely. After all of this he's very weak and really thin, has no muscles to speak off, but he will survive.
My truck ended up with water dripping due to condensation in the passenger side, pretty bad. It was caused by idling in the truck. There was two days where I was so upset at Terry I spent hours in the truck idling [Because it was 34C and I couldn't deal with heat and being upset]. I took it to my usual garage and at first the guy told me TO GET RID OF MY TRUCK. That the problem would cost thousands to fix. THat it would be a minimum of 10 hours of labour. In the end, this garage is awesome. It cost me 5 hours of labour to get the main heater core gasket changed. I talked to two of the guys at work and they both agreed that it explained my problem and the garage took good care of Me. Speedy in Kirkland have awesome mechanics.
Then it rained on the week-end and the roof LEAKED AGAIN in my fucking closet. Like really?
Wednesday, August 01, 2018
Friday, July 06, 2018
I hate hats, and yet must wear them.
I've always hated wearing hats. I had no choice if I wanted to be outside as a child but to wear a hat, and my grandma made me all sorts of cute hats and when she didn't my mom and aunt bought me some. But with the fine little hair I have every time I wear a hat I look like my hair hasn't been washed in the past 100 years. My hair rarely looks nice.
That being said I realized I need to have a hat for this summer. I bought one at Costco that I can tie but I don't like it much.
So I found a blog that had a free pattern and good instructions here
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| Stupid Costco hat |
So I found a blog that had a free pattern and good instructions here
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| Reversible hats - print side |
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| Reversible hats - solid side |
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| Me with the hat I made! |
Tuesday, June 19, 2018
Depressed.
Pain really has a way of isolating you in the worst way. I'm not coping anymore. I can't deal with the pain and the isolation. I feel like if I died tomorrow it would take most people a few months to realize I don't exist anymore. People are obviously fed up with my negativity and the fact if they ask how I feel I'm honest.
So no one is asking how I'm feeling. In fact no one is contacting me to talk to me anymore. I've never existed much. I remember when Sam used to say how insignificant I was in the world. I feel beyond insignificant. I don't know what the point is anymore.
Most days I cry, I have meltdowns, I work and sleep. It's no life. I haven't done much of anything that makes me happy. Even a kitten isn't cutting it most days, though he is really extra cute and very sweet natured.
Things that made me happy like camping, don't make me happy anymore. Not with the head pain. And the worst part, I think I have another basal cell carcinoma, this one on my nose. Which means part of my nose will be removed and I will require plastic surgery. It sucks. I never sun worshipped. It sucks that I end up with skin cancer.
I also don't want to end up in a psych ward either, which is generally what happens when you tell your therapist or family doctor you can't cope. Two months ago, I crashed badly and had a meltdown in my therapists office .He was ready to commit me to the psych ward. All that does is watch you to make sure you don't hurt yourself and put you on medication, which in my case would cause me to hurt myself as soon as I was released.
There is no real help for the depressed. They either put you in some form of protective custody so you don't hurt yourself and fill you full of drugs.
I've got to stop crying this morning and get myself together enough to work. I'm at work and not holding it together. I was in bed asleep by 10 pm last night. It's not lack of sleep. Though I was awake 4 times between 10pm and 6am.
Apparently the suicide rate for high IQ Autistic level 1 is through the roof. Of course. We are intelligent to know all that's wrong and realize there is no way out.
So no one is asking how I'm feeling. In fact no one is contacting me to talk to me anymore. I've never existed much. I remember when Sam used to say how insignificant I was in the world. I feel beyond insignificant. I don't know what the point is anymore.
Most days I cry, I have meltdowns, I work and sleep. It's no life. I haven't done much of anything that makes me happy. Even a kitten isn't cutting it most days, though he is really extra cute and very sweet natured.
Things that made me happy like camping, don't make me happy anymore. Not with the head pain. And the worst part, I think I have another basal cell carcinoma, this one on my nose. Which means part of my nose will be removed and I will require plastic surgery. It sucks. I never sun worshipped. It sucks that I end up with skin cancer.
I also don't want to end up in a psych ward either, which is generally what happens when you tell your therapist or family doctor you can't cope. Two months ago, I crashed badly and had a meltdown in my therapists office .He was ready to commit me to the psych ward. All that does is watch you to make sure you don't hurt yourself and put you on medication, which in my case would cause me to hurt myself as soon as I was released.
There is no real help for the depressed. They either put you in some form of protective custody so you don't hurt yourself and fill you full of drugs.
I've got to stop crying this morning and get myself together enough to work. I'm at work and not holding it together. I was in bed asleep by 10 pm last night. It's not lack of sleep. Though I was awake 4 times between 10pm and 6am.
Apparently the suicide rate for high IQ Autistic level 1 is through the roof. Of course. We are intelligent to know all that's wrong and realize there is no way out.
Sunday, June 17, 2018
I cooked some the past two weekends
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| All 4 chocolate bars are sweetened with coconut sugar. I seem to deal better if I don't mix my chocolate with Cane sugar! |
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| My favourite Quinoa tabouleh |
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| Gluten free spinach veggie 3 cheese lasagna |
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| Eggplant & chickpea curry and spicy lentil dhal made last week-end |
Saturday, June 16, 2018
Friday, June 15, 2018
Monday, June 11, 2018
Thursday, May 31, 2018
This is autism to me!
Monday, May 28, 2018
Pin-Wheel Dragonfly windchime
It's been some time since I last bought a dragonfly windchime. I saw this one at Walmart yesterday and I had to take it home!
Thursday, May 24, 2018
Fears are really telling
This is a Margaret Atwood quote I read recently.
Men are afraid that women will laugh at them.
Women are afraid that men will kill them.
Men are afraid that women will laugh at them.
Women are afraid that men will kill them.
Sunday, May 13, 2018
New dresses from 2018
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| McCalls M6883 - front made from a vintage cotton print from in my mom's stash. Finished May 2018 |
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| McCalls M6883 - back - made from a vintage cotton print from in my mom's stash. started 2014-15? |
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| Simplicity 1801 - made in flowy turquoise tie-dye challis - finished in April 2018 |
Saturday, May 12, 2018
New clothes made in 2018
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| Simplicity 1800 - with a starry batik print. Notice pockets |
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| Simplicity 8126 - 1970's dress in a leopard print |
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| Simplicity 2248 project runway - front of dress - Absolutely love this one |
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| Simplicity 2248 project runway - back of dress |
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| Simplicity 1356 - Jiffy reversible wrap around dress - 2 colour of rayons |
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| Simplicity 3833 - Retro 1960's mod dress in a batik dragonfly coton |
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| Simplicity 1799 - Project runway dress in a lovely print but horrible texture. This was a test dress |
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| Butterick B5351 |
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| McCalls 7526 - skirt made from cotton, with added pockets |
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| Butterick B5317 made from cotton sateen. Started that one over 5 years ago. |
Monday, May 07, 2018
Scary fire in neighbors tree
At 10:04 Friday night May 4rth, with gusts of wind going as high as 100Km per hour, a neighbours tree fell on the hydro lines. That caused the transformer at the end of my property to go kaboom and emit an explosion of electricity that set the conifer behind it on fire. Lucky half of the tree fell in another neighbours yard, as the wind was sending all the flaming pieces of tree towards my house and roof.
Thankfully, it had rained torrentially a few hours earlier and my roof was still wet enough so that non of the flaming debris caught my house on fire. But we found some of the pieces of burnt tree in my yard. When Terry told me there was a tree on fire, I ran outside the front (I am horribly afraid of electricity) so I could view most of my house and roof from a safe distance from the exploding transformer. While I was outside the power went off and on about 4 times and each time the transformer went boom and I screamed.
The firefighters showed up to check out the fire in the tree, and left 30 minutes later confident that the flames were not going to spread to the houses and put a yellow tape around the tree on the lines, and called HYDRO to turn off our grid, which apparently affected 440 customers. My buddy Pat is a firefighter at Pierrefonds and he was able to tell me that the firemen assessed the tree and called Hydro to turn off grid.
For the next 24 hours different Hydro Quebec trucks came to assess situation. THey start by stopping in front of my house, go look and then leave and park on Arragon and assess it from there. They came with chainsaws at 3AM Sunday morning, and by 5AM Sunday power was restored to us 440 customers. It's not the first time this transformer blows, but this time it scared the living daylights out of me because it kept going KABOOM.
This was the same week-end last year that my basement GOT FLOODED. Like what the fuck is with early May???? As for the water, it's a bit high right now but it's within seasonal levels. Last year the water was 1 meter higher!
Thankfully, it had rained torrentially a few hours earlier and my roof was still wet enough so that non of the flaming debris caught my house on fire. But we found some of the pieces of burnt tree in my yard. When Terry told me there was a tree on fire, I ran outside the front (I am horribly afraid of electricity) so I could view most of my house and roof from a safe distance from the exploding transformer. While I was outside the power went off and on about 4 times and each time the transformer went boom and I screamed.
The firefighters showed up to check out the fire in the tree, and left 30 minutes later confident that the flames were not going to spread to the houses and put a yellow tape around the tree on the lines, and called HYDRO to turn off our grid, which apparently affected 440 customers. My buddy Pat is a firefighter at Pierrefonds and he was able to tell me that the firemen assessed the tree and called Hydro to turn off grid.
For the next 24 hours different Hydro Quebec trucks came to assess situation. THey start by stopping in front of my house, go look and then leave and park on Arragon and assess it from there. They came with chainsaws at 3AM Sunday morning, and by 5AM Sunday power was restored to us 440 customers. It's not the first time this transformer blows, but this time it scared the living daylights out of me because it kept going KABOOM.
This was the same week-end last year that my basement GOT FLOODED. Like what the fuck is with early May???? As for the water, it's a bit high right now but it's within seasonal levels. Last year the water was 1 meter higher!
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| Tree that's really angled fell on the power lines in neighbours yard on Arragon. You can see yellow tape preventing them from going to the end of their yard. Danger with power lines. |
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| The big bucket looking thing blew multiple times and set the conifer in the background on fire |
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| From the pole with bucket, see the line going towards ground? That's where tree fell |
Wednesday, May 02, 2018
Sunday, April 29, 2018
Silver spotted Tabby Savannah
I've figured out that buddy is a silver spotted tabby Savannah, and he is currently in his fuzzies stage. A stage where his serval ancestor would have extra longer white fur to dilute his spots so that they camouflage better in the wild. The fuzzies arrive at the age the kittens start to explore, and helps them hide better in the brush. I've been reading that Silver spotted tabby Savannah's fur can change quite a bit before coming to the final colouring. I expect buddy to be a sandy colour and have very intense spots. I never saw photos of him before the fuzzies.
I'm also sure I have a Savannah. His hind legs are longer than his front legs. His body is extra long. His head is not very big but his ears are and are straight on top of his head rather then on the side. As well his eyes are almond shaped and have a hood around them. The shape of his face, he has a pointed nose! He's extremely smart, probably the smartest cat I've owned. He's jumps quite high already and while most acts run up trees, he can run down trees! He's almost as tall as Toby and he's as long as him at 5 months of age!
I was looking at serval's the other day and found a photo of one that reminds me of buddy. Except for the eye colour. This serval seems to have bluish eyes. Either way he's beautiful looking. It might even be a female since the face is very slim or maybe a young male. It takes usually 2-3 years for the fur to thicken around the face in some male cats I've owned.
I'm also sure I have a Savannah. His hind legs are longer than his front legs. His body is extra long. His head is not very big but his ears are and are straight on top of his head rather then on the side. As well his eyes are almond shaped and have a hood around them. The shape of his face, he has a pointed nose! He's extremely smart, probably the smartest cat I've owned. He's jumps quite high already and while most acts run up trees, he can run down trees! He's almost as tall as Toby and he's as long as him at 5 months of age!
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| Serval - Looks a bit like how buddy will look as a adult |
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| Buddy, on the patio table |
Monday, April 23, 2018
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