Tuesday, July 25, 2017

So it's normal.

This is how my head looks today. I still have a bump on the scalp end of the scar, and numbness on the top of my head. Since it's now 6 weeks from the surgery, I decided to call the dermatologist at du Marché. The one who did the biopsy and ask if I could be seen this week.

As it turns out, he was working only till noon today and then he's on vacation. I let his assistant know about how I still have a bump, and I still have numbness at the top of my head and I wanted to make sure this is normal. I said the scar was beautifully healed, but the bump and numbness and pain was of concern.

 She said she'd leave a message for the doctor and hoped he'd see it before he quit at noon. Well 30 minutes later she called back to say that due to the location of my surgery, the bump and head numbness is normal. There has been a nerve that was affected. I can massage the bump when I'm not doing anything and it's bugging me, it should help and that the doctor would like to see me in a followup in December.

Saturday, July 22, 2017

New Dress made from McCalls pattern and Batik cotton

I bought this lovely Navajo inspired batik at the Atlantic Fabrics in Truro last year.Used McCalls M7535 to make this one.

Thursday, July 20, 2017

What a fucking day.

Today was one of them "special days". As I'm getting ready for work, I pass one kitchen chair, trip over it and chair falls on the ceramic floor and breaks! Yep. One of the chairs I've had since I was 20ish. My favourite kitchen set.

 Then I get to work and get on to the work I have to do. At least the past few days I've been testing mostly monitors on a old product so I don't have to put cards in and out of systems and risk banging my head under my bench. Well regardless, one of the few times I did go under my bench I banged my head good, right next to the scar. Have big bump right next to my scar. My head is still pretty numb there.

I convinced Terry to have lunch with me, and we went to Ben and Florentines. I like the fact they have plenty of healthy and gluten free options. In fact I was thrilled to discover another item on the menu I can consume. There's so many there, I actually have to choose what I want!!!! So I chose the quinoa bowl. Our food arrives and mine does not look like a bowl. Call waitress, and ask "This is the Quinoa bowl"? It wasn't. She tells me it will be a while longer since they have to make the Quinoa bowl from scratch.

Sucky part it was like 1:30PM when we went there, so there was not much people. I figured I'd make lunch under an hour. But with the fuck up it took 1:10 minutes. However to make up for it, I got my quinoa bowl for free. It was delicious, except for the asparagus. I'll know next time to say "Hold the asparagus" unless Zoey is with us, then I'll dump it in her plate :P She likes asparagus! There is something else on the menu at Ben & Florentine's where I ask to hold the asparagus. Really not a fan.
Quinoa bowl from Ben & Florentines
Glad today is done. 2017 still sucks.

Ironic how the most racist group in Quebec is also the most inbred?

The region of Quebec that is most racist and Xenophobic is the region of Saguenay-Lac St-Jean. This also happens to be a region in Quebec which is a hotbed for hereditary diseases, not just due to inbreeding but inbreeding does not help.

From an article " There are higher rates in Quebec of some 30 diseases with a genetic basis, including cystic fibrosis, Tay-Sachs, and certain types of muscular dystrophy, high cholesterol, and rickets."

 While they say that some of the reason we have so much hereditary diseases in Quebec is also due to the "founder effect".  But what's for sure is that people who are carriers of certain diseases, should not reproduce with other carriers.

So immigrants coming to Quebec especially those that do not have any French ancestry could help improve the gene pool. But those from the most inbred areas are also those who are most against immigrants. Life's irony!

Sunday, July 16, 2017

Gig at Lancaster camping resort

Beach at Lancaster Park
They sold a Mexican poutine, that was quite acceptable.
The PoliceMen live!

Saturday, July 15, 2017

Last stitch finally gone.

So this morning we removed the last stitch. Finally. Now hopefully the numbness on the top.of the head will disperse. ..

Friday, July 14, 2017

Really Google ?

I'm very disappointed with Google News, offering me Rebel Media as an option for news.

Rebel Media articles should not be pushed by Google news. This is Canada's Breitbart, and should not be shared like fact.

UGH

Thursday, July 13, 2017

Wonder if something is wrong with the comments.

In 2017 there has not been one comment left on my blog. I know people don't leave comments often, but none?  Makes me think the comments aren't working....

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

Still got one fucking stitch

For some reason the top two melting stitches have been giving me a hard time. Maybe it's because they are on my scalp rather than my forehead. The presence of hair might have hampered my body's ability to spot foreign substances Yesterday morning Terry cut the last top stitch saying it was the only left. This morning I realized that the one before that is still there intact. WHAT THE FUCK!!! All the other stitches are long gone. Highly unimpressed.

Monday, July 10, 2017

Reserve faunique Rouge-Matawin photos

lac des sucreries

lac des sucreries

Lac Jamet

Lac Jamet

Spot 1 Lac Jamet

Ruffed Grouse

Ruffed Grouse

Loon

Lac des cinqs doigts

Lac des cinqs doigts

Lac des cinqs doigts

Cascades

cascades

Sunday, July 09, 2017

Camping at Lac des Sucreries at Rouge-Matawin

So this was my second attempt to go to the Rouge-Matawin wildlife reserve. We had not gone camping yet this year and after all this time we decided we should. My head is still sore but we hoped it would be ok.

We decided to go there because it's reasonably close and he keeps saying he wants to go to Parc du Mont Tremblant. I've been there enough, I've been to all the areas, and lets be honest, Tremblant, Oka and Plaisance are where Montrealers go in large amounts. In fact there are people who only camp at the same place every single year.

Since I like variety and I don't like crowds I decided to retry Rouge-Matawin, despite my Lac Jamet experience. I think the problem there is that I took the 4, and then the 41 and got lost. If you take the 2, you get to the 6 and Lac Jamet easily. We did actually try to go there this time on Saturday, and we decided if we go to Rouge-Matawin again, we'd take the first spot on Lac Jamet.

So Thursday night we reserved spot 39 at Lac des sucreries. It's right at the La Macaza entrance, I figured we'd be able to make it there for 9pm.  Originally he wasn't supposed to work and I was finishing at 1:30. In the end he did work and I had to pack the truck alone and pick him up at 4.  We didn't leave Montreal till 6:30 and the Laurentian auto-route was a giant parking lot all the way past St Jerome.   We made it to the Wildlife reserve it was 8:50. 

Since I already hat a spot, she just had to make a paper for their holder and I was good. She said "Oh you're right in front here".  Now I figured she did not mean it LITERALLY.  I thought she meant that the Lac des sucreries campground is almost in front of the acceuil.  No, spot 39 is LITERALLY in front of the acceuil. ANd it's confusing, because you can go from 1 - 34 and 40 & 41 are all continuous in the campsite and 35-39 are in front of the acceuil, 39 is right near the canoe portage trail.

Well we went around for ONE HOUR looking for spot 39. Unlike parcs in Wildlife reserves they do not give you a map of the campground.  Thankfully a butch lady say us driving around in circles and stopped us on one of our loops and asked if we needed help. We told her our problem. She said, No problem, follow me, the lady camped over yonder knows all the spot, she'll tell you were it is..

So it was now 10pm and PITCH BLACK. The new tent requires 2 people to put up and light, so we used the car's headlights but without running the truck.  BIG MISTAKE.  At some point the truck didn't start anymore. We hadn't even filled up the mattress. Thank god I had brought the tent floor.  At least it wasn't too hard sleeping on that floor.

Thankfully the next morning, my truck started, so I took it for a 30 minute drive back to La Macaza to make sure battery was good. Then we filled the mattress..

We did end up canoeing a bit on le lac des sucreries after it stopped raining on Saturday.

On Sunday we packed and we were back in Montreal by 12;30. Mostly because I was too tired.  I didn't have the energy to canoe. I didn't have the energy to do much of anything. Just packing uppacking, putting up tent and tarps wore me down completely.




Critter count, Ruffed grouse, loons, chipmunk, squirrel, groundhog.

Friday, July 07, 2017

Thursday, July 06, 2017

Towards an ASD diagnosis.

After the therapy session today, my therapist is now 99% sure I'm ASD.  He's also going to re-run the long diagnostic test he had me do 6 years ago, through the system again, apparently they analyze the data differently than they did back then.  Also next appointment, he will give me a test  to identify the level of my neuro differences.   I will also be meeting with a woman who works in the same office, for part of the test. She is their specialist in diagnosing autism. One part of test she will be doing is showing me pictures with facial expressions and see if I can identify them.  She generally works with children but apparently has diagnosed several young adults recently. I bet I will be the oldest female adult she's ever had to diagnose!

It feels good to know. It all fits in. Like I'm not missing parts of the puzzle anymore.  All the other health issues I have tend to be typical of people with autism. From the general over sensitivity, to the asthma, eczema, seasonal allergies, food allergies and intolerances, as well as gluten sensitivity, add the social anxiety, the generalized anxiety, hating change and the sensory processing disorder . Hell even my painful periods and hellish PMS which was closer to PMDD, it all fits.

Whether my mom knew or not or suspected, what's for sure is that she tried to help me be as autonomous and independent as possible. She gave me hundreds of coping skills and she had figured out many things about me to make me function at high levels.  My therapist thinks I'm a successful. person. To have managed to get myself where I am and function given all the other trauma's I've had, I'm ok. Now I just need to convince myself and not be always so hard on myself.  I often see myself as a GINORMOUS failure.

I need to keep repeating to myself, I'm different, not less. 

Tuesday, July 04, 2017

Passion of Photography

I was added to the group or joined it years ago, and in the past 6 months I've been getting pleasure posting 1 photo a day on the topic posted. I've followed the rules. Then 2 weeks ago, I can't find the group.

Since my ex husband's uncle is one of the moderators, I asked him what happened to the group, he said nothing. So a week later, I asked if I was blocked maybe. He said yes. Said moderator says I was posting too many photos on the wrong topic.

I was sick the week I was removed. I posted NOTHING the week I was removed.So the one thing that was giving me pleasure on Facebook is now gone. With  no recourse. Lovely eh?  And really what was the guy on?

I'm more upset than I should be, but I HATE HATE HATE being blamed for something I didn't do. It's not fair.

My dad would say life isn't fair. But I'm fed up of the unfairness.

So a giant FUCK YOU to the asshole who removed me for no reason.  Your loss. You won't see my photos anymore. 

So I tried to look on Facebook when the last time I posted to the group - but because I'm BLOCKED I can't search it.  So thankyou facebook from preventing me from defending myself. If I had access to the logs to show what I have posted, then I could prove I did nothing wrong. 

Saturday, July 01, 2017